Whats going on with me ? I can't dig ut any answer for that question . Am i jealous ? or sad ? or neutral ? If jealous , then why . Eversince the outing , his image is always playing in my mind . He's a gentlemen but still why am i like this . We are just friends or even lesser . I'm perfect outside but broken inside . I'm having a total mix feeling now . Since his attached , i tried not to tell anyone about this .

I should not have started of playing this particular stupid game and ended up liking him . Like what Syahidah said , " mula mula main main , lama lama kawin ." To me thats bulls . But look at me now . Liking him , eventhough not married of course . If i can change the past , i would not even want to start this game or even mentioning his name .

I have many ideas to write just now , but all the idea is gone . Just let me stop this here and have a peaceful mind .